Some days, I get a little discouraged and wonder what impact what little I'm doing really has. I wonder about my life, my worshiping, my work, and this little website of mine.
This website is a little piece of my life. A corner for personal expression. I design the pages, think about the content, wish I had more money and time to dedicate to crafting something attractive, and writing something truly impacting. I don't know if I will every accomplish either of those objectives. But I try to write what I'm thinking and feeling, and hope that someone will come alongside and find a kindred spirit, a helping hand, an encouragement, or just some understanding.
Tonight I was checking on my statistics, and I b-lined for my favorite; the search terms. People find this website from the most amusing of ways, and it's usually good for a laugh, but here's what I saw tonight.
Suddenly I wondered what happened. Did she do it? Did something she may have read here change her mind?
Unfortunately, I will probably never know. But it did remind me of how much capacity we truly have for impact. We just need to get God's perspective on what "impact" really looks like. Whether it's our heartfelt blog that opens a door to Jesus through authenticity and sincerity, or whether is a friendly conversation with the Barista at the local cafe, or whether it's simply carving time out of the schedule to meet and talk with a friend.
On another note, I started thinking about search terms. If my life had search terms, what would they be?
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